How Did I Ever Get To This Place?

Tuesday January 14, 2025

Lies

My Lord, you heard my groaning. You can hear my sighs. My heart is pounding. My strength is gone, and I am going blind. Because of my sickness, my friends and neighbors will not visit me; my family will not come near me. My enemies say bad things about me. They are spreading lies and rumors. They talk about me all the time. But I am like a deaf man and cannot hear. I am like someone who cannot speak. I am like those who cannot hear what people are saying about them. I cannot answer to prove my enemies wrong. Lord, you must defend me. Lord my God, you must speak for me. That’s why I prayed, “Don’t let my enemies smile at my pain. Full of pride, they will laugh if I stumble and fall.” I know I am guilty of doing wrong. I cannot forget my pain. (Psalm 38:9-17 ERV)

Many of us have come from an environment that is described by the writer of the above Psalm. When we made unwise decisions, we never dreamed they would take us to where they did. We didn’t consider how our behaviour might turn our family, friends, and neighbours away from us. We never thought we would get to a place where we could not bear to hear what people were saying about us.

We know that we are not alone. Many people in the world of addiction are like us. Most made foolish choices and were naïve to the way their dependency led them and how far it took them down. That’s why the writer of the Psalm turned to God for help. When we get to that place where we hate what we are doing and call out to God, He will be there to help us.

The significant question for each of us to ask ourselves is, “Do I really hate what I have been doing or do I just hate the suffering I have to endure?”

Like the Psalmist, we must come to God and admit that we are guilty of wrongdoing. We cannot deal with our pain on our own. Our Heavenly Father waits for us to turn our hearts towards Him. When we do, He will adopt us into His family, and we will have all the power of the Kingdom of Heaven to help us.

Heavenly Father, I confess that my life is a mess of my own making. I have done wrong things and made poor choices. I turn away from it all and leave it behind. I want to be born again into Your kingdom and follow Your ways as Your precious child. Please help me! Amen

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